Journal Thoughts--Turning Points--7/15/2006

Life is quite peculiar at times. David and his current employment of Army training in Special Ops to be, God Willing, a doctor, is something that has really caught my attention. His love for the Lord, his respect for the elders who are his mentors, it is absolutely amazing to hear this young man speak! But, what I would like to know is, does my new found interest in the Army, and possibly things oversea, are they due to, or have ANYTHING to do with David? Anything at all? Naturally, I've said nothing of this to Erik, or to David. I've prayed about it, and mentioned the Army to Erik, who said that due to my epilepsy, the Army won't take me.
Erik, unless I'm wrong, is NOT (cannot emphasize that enough) the love of my life. He's always taking, always wanting to spend the night with me, when I don't want him to. David, though younger by five years compared to Erik, in other words, he's two years younger than I am, is more of a gentleman than Erik or any of Erik's friends are. David was more of a gentleman during Kerry's wedding than Erik's been in almost two and a half years. That's pretty sad. David held open doors for me, voluntarily sat in the back of Mary's truck with Patrick, and neither of them are short, and they both put up with being "smooshed" during the Wal-Mart trip so that I could sit up front with plenty of room. Just thinking about it makes me want to cry. Erik rarely, if ever, holds open a door for me, and whenever it's a full car, I get to sit behind the tallest person, which is usually, ironically, Erik.
And while I'm complaining about Erik, I might as well say, that for our first date, he gave me a plastic rose, saying "I was going to get you a real one, but they die, so I went with they fake one, because it'll live forever."

The Turning Point--Journal Thoughts from 7-7-2006

Well, Kerry and Daniel get married tomorrow, and Kerry's name forevermore shall change. I really am happy for them. David, Kerry's younger brother, actually DID show up though, after he lied to Kerry about not getting the time off. Or rather, not being able to. So, after I arrived at Kerry's parent's house yesterday for "hang-out" time to "meet the family," David came up and hugged me, like Beau does, in pretty much the same manner. That alone shocked me, because I haven't seen David in what feels like ages. In my being shocked I said, "Okay...That was different. I was expecting a handshake." He didn't seem like it was strange at all. Like he'd just seen me the day before at college group. He's in the army, in special forces, he's still training, so I don't know too much, and I'm tired and was tired when he was talking earlier today, so I wasn't able to retain too much information. Unfortunately. Anyway, what really got to me was how mature David is! Cuz while he, Patrick, and I were hanging out in the office upstairs, we were talking, and he was saying all that, and I asked him why he joined the Army. His words surprised me to the core, as well as spoke to me, and awakened, or reawakened a honest desire in me to find a "honest and perfect man" and that the man be in honest truth when he says that he desires to seek God's will, and then do it. Whether it be going into the Army to put forth all he is, and all he has got, or going to be a doctor, or at least try it, and see if it is God's will, to me, THAT is a true, strong, honest, and above all, Christian man. To David, the Army is a ministry, and it seems like for now, and if it's God's will, the rest of David's life, the Army will be his ministry. The thoroughly enjoys it. He has these older gentlemen, in North Carolina where he's stationed, who are his mentors. And from what I can tell, they've done him a LOT of good! I know that all of my jibber-jabber seems just like it's that--jibber-jabber, and maybe it is. But, it seems like somewhere, in one of my journals, that if one were to come into my life, my desire for the type of man that I would want to marry would be a LOT like Beau, with a heart that is always looking to God, and desiring to do his will. David, in mannerisms, minds me a lot of Beau. That's funny, because in looks, Joe and Michelle (also a few mannerisms), remind me of Beau and Rhonda...and both couples ride motorcycles. Which is pretty sweet! Anyway, more later.