Journal--8/24/2007 @11:15pm

Another thing that God has shown me this summer is the miracle of the moment. Not a moment that's pre-maturely planned in my life, nor one where anything is late. God has shown me that the best time to be is now. AndI know this because if you focus on your past, and things that happened, you end up living in yesterday, and you miss the new and great things that happen. And if you focus on the future, and what has yet to happen, then you can't get ready to BE that person you're focusing on in your dreams, or your can't meet your goals. Time and again I have heard this message from above, for me to be in the moment. And I know it's from above because the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, willing to yield, and full of good fruits, and the message "Be in the moment," or "don't miss the miracle of the moment," or even at work I've heard "Focus on one thing at a time Gaby." I think that advice passes all those checkpoints. Erik is part of my past. As I see it, even as a friend he drags me down, and there is no place for him in my life in neither the present, nor the future. He can only be part of my past. I am not sorry for the time he was in my life, because as that one quote says "Some people come into our lives and leave again, others come into our lives and leave little imprints on our hearts and we are never the same. --Unknown" Erik is in the latter category. It doesn't say whether they're good or bad imprints, just imprints. I'm not the same person I was when he and I were going out. I'm older, I'm wiser, I'm smarter, and less naive. Some of these things are a good thing. Others, like being less naive, I'm not sure. But anyway, I can't live in the past.